BACK TO THE START…

…Before I soaked me in your everything
Filling me with you to be something
Now in my nothingness I ask…

Take me back to the start
And I would tread another path
Who’s end bares not this hurt
And I would make right my math
One plus one is two not one
And me plus you is you not us
For here and now it’s a lonely I
The odds and ends of he who trusted.

Take me back to the start
And my feet will be stronger
Than the feelings in my heart
And falling would not occur
Not for you, not anywhere
For now in love am crumbled pieces
The miscellany of he who loved.

Take me back to the start
And I wouldn’t make you my main thing
Better the bareness I had at heart
Before I soaked me in your everything
Filling me with you to be something
Now in my nothingness I ask
Did I mean anything?

Take me back to the start
I’ll lock my heart and cast the key
In an abyss deep and darker than night
A hole so dim as the gloom you’ve caused me

Take me back to the start
And I’ll bravely deceive my being
That what I feel is far from real.

Take me back to the start
And I will not love you
At least not as much as I do…

_Emm